First blog post

Good Evening avid readers of yet another new blog.


My name is Vejay (i like to be called John – one syllable is easier on the tongue than two).

I am writing this knowing that there are many people who write about their own perspective of life on the internet; whilst taking up the time of busy people. So to those who are not so busy; and sit down once in a while to read; i hope this blog helps your Life or helps you Laugh and Smile

Have a great evening world..

Always Ever Here. Short poem.

Always Ever Here.
Short poem.

The Ending too Early
Always Ever Here,
The Soul Lives by Day
The Body Dies by Night,
The Sun Wakes with Light
The Night full-fills Fright,
Her Step just Ahead
My Mind just Behind,
The Day Bakes Our Bread
The Night Makes Our Bed,
The Day Break Starts Task
The Night Time Tasks Last,
My Sleep Toss and Turn
My Work Watch and Learn,
The Soul Sings Sad Song
The Heart feels Belong,
The Mind thinks Akin
To Love is to Spin,
The Day Invites In
Warm Friends to Desire,
The Night Invites In
The Ice Nail of Aspire,
Observing One’s Life
One Paints Life so Lovely,
Observing One’s Life
One Ends Life so Lonely,
The Day Dreams Draw
Patterns of Pity,
The Nightmares Cloud Mind
With Professional Pithy,
To Live Simply Spin
Around Opinions Perceived Sin,
The Day Law feel Glad
The Night Law feel Sad,
To Feel Bad is classed Good
Classed Good is just Hard,
Be Evolved Day by Day
Be Devolved Night by Night,
Count Blessings they Are
Blended Disguise,
The Devils in the Details
The Fall of the Pride,
Night or Day Surely
Both Dreams Cost All Dear,
The Ending Too Early
Always Ever Here.


“”She as free as wild horses”” V Patel 4.3.19

She was born to wander as free as wild horses
She roamed her Texas her miles of men
She smiled for her admirers her last social action
She foretold the darkness before it was dusk
She knew that her fate was woven in fabric
She wore the fabric facade fooling fools
She ferociously hid her fear from me
She left me numb freezing hollow alive
She protected her people from insanity of illness
She smothered my fear with her smile and frown
She decrypted my mind with diligent deduction
She and I had history when we sailed safe harbour
She and I sailed tough seas throughout together
She wanted her soul mate since she was seven
She internaled her thoughts letting glib glimpses
She spoke cryptic truths about her cooped up corner
She drove her self intensely inside and out
She drove her other halves to abandon their doubt
She drove me to set free my soiled up soul
She fought for her family friends and freedoms
She inherited infectious laughter and infection
She was longing for living in loving arms
She always made time to talk the truths
She looked forward to fate foretelling my future
She looks on from above everliving my dreams
She is free wild nature her ashes in soil
She is the fresh flowers of farms of fragrance
She welcomed her wild wish to live and sail young
She left behind the worn wake of her wild wedding
She set sail from this world during her sunset
She stood on her ship of last smiles and sorrows
She cast off the shore and left a dark shadow
She sailed to her sea her silent journey
She sails on to swim in her sea of salvation
She is my soul mate she’s free as wild horses.
V Patel


En Joying in Moment

Elated In Side

En Ablement in Action

Effervescent to Heights

Efficacious in Out Come

Electric in Power

Eccentric in Path

Empathetic in Heart

Eclectic in Friends

Eager in Truth

Equible in Nature

En Lightened in Soul

Elegant in Motion

Enchanted in World

Engrossed in Duty

Ernest In tegrity

Ethical in Value

Emotional In telligence

Erudition of Thought

En Couraging Others

Efficient in Time

Ever Lasting in Love

Euphoric in Smile

Experienced in Wise

En Dearing in Self

Em Powerment in Life


A plan to succeed

By working for it

By staying dedicated

By accepting life’s challenges

Be able to complete the plan

By becoming abled

By using your innate talents

By learning new skills

By educating the mind to new ideas

By building resilience

By Staying focused your happiness

And your plan will come to fruition.

Good Bye Red Sky. Poem.

Good Bye Red Sky

Must Find Cool Streams

Fly Bird Fly to Sky
Until you Drop to Die
In the Sky just Love
In Time Love and Cry
Our Lives A Light
Together Star Struck
With Magic of Life
Dance the Dream Day to Day
In air fly and Care
Fly Your Dreams

While a Life Find Love
No Roads In Sky
No Paths Just Fly
Image your Dream
In your Eye
Share the Cry the Soul’s Great Sigh
Of Birds who Fly
Point your Nose
To your Stream
Life’s liquid Cool
Food for Soul
Shimmering Cold
Way of Water
Feel Your Self
Know Your Mind
Live Your Soul
Follow Your Stream
Eat Fishes of
Failure giving Strength
From Falling
Fly Above Fear
Your Courage Wishes
Your Wings to Lift
Your Precious Mind
To Shift in Aim
And Soar New Vector
To Another Dream
Another Shimmer
Another Cold Stream
Fly Your Dream
Free is Love
Am Flying Mine
All My Life
I Love to Fly
To HER Soaring in Sun
Once She Flew Till
Her Cry is Gone
Her Flight Flew On
Inside my Mind
I Follow Her Stream

Forever Till i Die
And Drop No Sight
Of This Raging Red Sky
Fly Well Fellow Birds
Find Calm Streams
Just Fly. Just Fly. Just Fly
Good Bye Red Sky

VP. 10.1.19. Good Bye Red Sky

About The Church of Stigma. A Short Poem.

Hail Stigma Hallelujah

Stigma is the Prejudice of the Powerful

The Language of Liars

Judge and Jury of the Jailed

Detri Mental Domination by Moral Majority

Rules by Rulers Moulding the Masses

Condemning the Meek in a Pitiful Place

Destroying Dignity Day by Day

Starving the Soul of its Source of Strength

Setting the Sun Darkest Days

Leaving a Lonesome Lonely Person

Poisoning a Persons Personality

Possessing them as a Property

Killing the Kindness of Kin

Freezing Friendships Frozen in Time

Desperate Measures for Desperate Men Dead to Those Dear

Worse for Women in Perfect Planet Raped Beaten Tortured Toys

Children Brainwashed Groomed Seduced Used

Face Stigma for Life Persistent Pain

All Alive in a Failed State of Slaves

Ignorance is Bliss to Powerful People
Who are Perfect for their “Prophet Perfection”

Worshipping Glory of Stigma Their God

Hail Stigma Hallelujah


The Church of Stigma 18.11.18

Religious Freedom

The right to worship whoever you choose Is a Human right.

Many people have Faith and Hope

In their God and their Self.

This faith gives Strength to move beyond their limits.

My Mum is Superhuman.

She worked herself to poor health for me.

She has done more for me than Anyone else.

And has paid a price with her health for me.

Thanks Mum for being my best friend for 47 years.

People tried to separate us because she was not Asian enough for her ex-husband and his family.

They failed. My mother and me will always see each other for her Life.

I’m here for you Mum.

Have a blessed day World.

Mum’s Mobility Freedom

My Mum went to the temple today for her prayers and meditation. Mum is a spiritual person. A free spirit.

She was picked up by friends who pick up other disabled people in a mobility van.

It’s a happy day for her. And a Happy day for me that she had a Social day.

Mum took this picture as she was sat on her wheelchair singing her Heart out.

Religious Freedom is something new cannot deny anyone. It’s a basic Human right.

Have a blessed day World.

The Revolving Door

Sometimes Life is a revolving door

We hurry to meet people as time hurries through our lifetime

We get a fleeting momentary glimpse and misperception of their lives

And try to understand what we experience with our Humanity

We move on to meet others as we live on..

In an ever growing life complexity of relationships and history.

Until we Rest in Peace.

Then Who We Were and our Ideals influence those who mourn our Passing.

Kind regards

Have a blessed day World

My Band of Brothers

You know who you are in

Jason Bryan Tabor

Tulsa Oklahoma

You all befriended me, housed me, entertained me, put up with me and my mess of a life, fed me, treated me as an equal, taught me, inspired me, loved and sometimes hated me for who I Am.

If any of you ever read this

You all saved and gave me a Life to live for

God bless.

Kind regards.

Bless the Families.

Yours Sincerely

The Fifth Beatle


Everyone in this Life

Pays for their mistakes and the misery they inflict..

Pays for the Life they were given..

We pay in our Human way..with our Souls..

We pay for the next Generation of Life

With our Sweat and Hard work

With our Love and Laughter

Looking on with Wonder as Life grows..

With our Tears and Fears

With our Hopes and Dreams

And we are Rewarded at our Ends

Knowing we have Done our Best

For Those who Needed us..

Have a Bless day world.

True, Loyal and Free (revised).

I stayed true and loyal to my biological parents and their Own choices respecting whatever they chose to do whilst ignoring the negative comments about their marriage I’ve had all my life by people who were never there during my parents marriage….2nd hand opinions.

The human being in me needed to know which human beings I came from. I needed to know them. And I did by my choices.

I treat them as equals. They both made their own decisions. Hina was mine. I live with the consequences.. and live to meet my future karma head on..1 step at a time. They both know my independent spirit and know my hardworking character. I’m a chip of their blocks 😉

I helped raise my half Brothers for a while then was gone from their lives..(not their fault)..I was just much older mentally and physically. They are now good and successful men in their own right.

I also know all my many close Cousins since birth and have followed all Thier lives also as they have followed mine.

We’ve all been at the same weddings, funerals and Asian social events and shared laughter and tears for over forty years.

I make my own choices as became older since age 8.. I was never mentally part of anyone’s elses family and friends and grew distant with families yet close to compassionate people throughout my adult life. On the outside I seemed tough.. on the inside I needed nurture..

The people who helped me through mine are ones who had a compassionate nature. Hina had an auto immune disease and had a low immune system later in our marriage. Our Compassion made us friends first.

I now avoid hatred, bigotry and dogma like the plague. People in our Asian society judged her illness often as being deserved or karmic that is willed by God. So I stay away from these types of societies opinions.

I understand that everyone cannot always please each another.. I live and let live..

I don’t judge I’m human I don’t know everything.. I’m not God and don’t want to be.

I chose, and by nature am independent and a free spirit, ..a Gen X Asian/Indian that was born in England and grew in the Usa.

I’m a mix of cultures East and West.

My marriage to Hina was opposed by families.. We had to convince everyone we were right for each another. Both of us were more western than eastern. It was our choice to be together. It defined our characters that grew from the relationship.

I still live with my character and her influence on it. Anyone who knew her would recognise her traits that exist in me now. People live on after death through their influence on the people around them.

My family knows I tried to date and marry after her but moving forward after I cremated Hina was difficult due to the nature of her illness and eventual passing. Grief is unique to the individual person. My grief is still alive. From September to December it’s difficult as she was in a coma and I was by her side most nights. Watching her deteriorate and reading the Bible and talking with her for hours about my day. We celebrated her 29th birthday then let her go soon after. I signed her hospital papers and allowed her to pass away.

Her family are the best family Hina could have ever have had. They were very supportive of her illness.

The world knows I made my own eclectic group of friends and acquaintances that range from alcoholics, addicts, professional Ceo’s to an old lady in Tulsa who had commited armed robbery and who worked as a housekeeper. Good people who needed and showed compassion. I never hid my true friends from my family. I went to many concerts and most of my friends are also musicians and artists whilst working full time. My friends come from all walks of life and culture.

I look for the Humanity in person not thier position in life.

My families have seen the tip of the ice berg and don’t have to know everything, as all human beings live their own lives and peoples right to privacy is as important as the truth.

My closest friends have been broken people who in me also saw a broken person they could try to heal. I love them all and would not be alive without them. Hina’s passing altered the course of my life and took me down dark emotions.

I’ve always seen Time as a Healer..

Ive learned that

Giving Love can be showing strength to inspire others even when we are crumbling inside.

Accepting Love is having the humble grace to ask for help when we need it the most…

God Bless my many Kind Parents, Families and Kind Friends for showing me the way to be true, loyal and free.

Thanks for reading Kind stranger..

Have a Blessed day world.

Life’s Chapters.. a Gypsy Road..

I have

Lived and Loved in

  • Nuneaton with parents
  • Manchester with parents they divorced 1974. Mum never remarried . Father did.
  • Walsall with fathers family didn’t see my mother and Not her fault. Couldn’t even write to her.
  • Leicester with father didn’t see my mother and Not her fault.
  • Ashton-under-Lyne with father and step mother (a good person)
  • Burnage Manchester with my Mum. Was taken by my Mum but ordered back to father by courts
  • London (Islington) with father and no hope of seeing my mother again. I became very independent and introverted. Age 13.
  • Levenshulme Manchester with Mum at 16 years old finally got to know my Mum proper.
  • Coventry at polytechnic.
  • Warrington for work
  • Bangalore India with Mum
  • Conway Arkansas USA with Hina age 25.
  • Tulsa Oklahoma USA as widower age 31 with my Uncle Phil my mentor since was child.. I worked for Marriott and then Hilton in Tulsa. Was a workaholic due to being a widower.
  • And currently Ardwick Manchester with Mum she’s disabled now. God bless her.

I lived with ALL my extensive family when my parents divorced.

In this generation I would have gone into care but it was the 1970s with poor social support.

Missed my Mum bad as a child.. Now I won’t leave her alone due to her disabilities. The world tried to separate us due to a Patriarchal Asian society that is Sexist.


We succeeded through God’s grace. We never gave up on each another.

And the addresses number above 30.
The next chapter awaits..

Thanks for reading this.

Have a Blessed day world and thanks Kind reader.